Random III

12/18/2009 by hoshinator

Can’t get enough Glenn Beck. Don’t agree with everything that comes out of his mouth, but his grasp of history and his passion are undeniable. 

Were it not for the other exciting stories in the NFL, as a Chiefs fan I would be begging for this season to mercifully end. I think it’d be terrific if the Saints and Colts went undefeated and met in the Super Bowl. At the very least it would make those twits from the ’72 Dolphins go away. 

Saw conservative columnist S E Cupp on Fox News last night. Am I the only one who thinks she’s sexy? 

Watched the sixth installment of Harry Potter on  PPV the other night. If you’re a parent, you know how hard it can be to focus on a movie with three kids of various ages fighting the whole time. Factor in the understanding that I am the type of person who wants to see every scene of a movie and hear every word, and you know why I felt like I was in Hell for much of the movie. My children were lucky to survive the evening. A lot more lucky than Rowling’s book, I must say. For a movie that fucking long, you’d think Steve Kloves, the screenwriter, could have been more selective about what he cut from the story. For every scene he wasted illustrating the fact that our three heroes are growing up, he could have shown more of the meetings between Harry and Dumbledore as they make their way thru Voldemort’s past. I understand that cuts must be made, I know Rowling spent time on the kids’ relationships in the book, but Harry’s journeys with Dumbledore are the meat of the story, the most important part. Hell, I’d sit for another twenty minutes of film time if it meant the film stayed a little truer to the story… The guy who plays Dumbledore, Gambon, isn’t half the actor the original, Sir Richard Harris, was. And, despite my hopes, while the series has grown more interesting [this is true of the books, as well; the writing in the first two is sometimes laughable], Radcliffe’s acting has not. I can’t see Daniel continuing his career as an actor after this series ends on anything but name value only. 

TV scheduling is a little crazy this time of year, I understand this. But I recently dedicated myself to two more shows – in addition to House M.D. – and the networks have betrayed me. I’m used to Fox fucking with me each year of ouseHouse   House; but now ABC has discontinued ‘V’ and ‘FlashForward’ until MARCH. Are you fucking kidding me? Another Fox mainstay, ‘24’ doesn’t even begin until next year, why can’t they do this with House? With all of the drama underpinning the series [inter-relationships between characters are at an all-time high], it is more important than ever to have some sort of continuity to the series. What a crock. 

Al Franken is such a dork I suppose it is only in America that he could become a US Senator. He wasn’t funny on SNL, his books are ideological snoozers, and now he’s showing his lack of class when refusing Joe Lieberman a few more minutes to speak during debate on the Health Care Bill Increaser. 

Why can’t this climate change thing go away? Anyone possessing common sense has known for a decade that global warming is not man-made, it is cyclical. We didn’t cause the last ice age and we didn’t cause global warming. While the hacked emails of ClimateGate only confirmed what persons with common sense already knew, at least it has opened the door for real debate, something which has not occurred in this sensitive area. And that’s strange, since the scientific method requires peer-review and duplicated results and a forum for dissent. But, no, what’s more frightening than an a fool like Franken having a vote in our Senate is a group of scientists with a hard Left agenda. I watched the TruTV show ‘Conspiracy Theory with Jesse Ventura’ about Global Warming. It was excellent and kudos to the network for airing it and for major sponsor Geico for standing behind it. Jesse is still cool, even for an old blowhard. 

What do I want for Christmas? Health and happiness for my wife and children. A job. For the Health Care Reform bill to stall and calmer heads prevail next year. A dismissal of further initiatives and actions by the government with regards to climate change until a more honest debate and more reliable, independent scientific data can be gathered. A complete sweep of the House and Senate by conservative candidates. A weekly blowjob from my wife. Other stuff. 

Merry Christmas!

Random II

12/02/2009 by hoshinator

Kudos to the Ditherer in Chief for finally making a decision on the Afghan war. “Boo” to the Ditherer in Chief for making the wrong one. By making a decision that neither pleases his base, nor answers the request from his hand-picked General on the ground, Obama has shown the military acumen we have come to expect from a liberal and the political ass-covering we have come to expect from all politicians.

Do I have a solution for the Afghan war? Not really, insomuch as I think the outcome of the conflict, hinging as it does on the stability of the democracy installed there, is always going to be murky. But I have a few suggestions that might save American soldiers’ lives and maybe convince the people of the Middle East to Just Say No to terrorism.

1)      Obama should commit the full force of our mighty war machine on the region; overwhelm the turban-wearing hordes with the sheer numbers of our unified will.

2)      Any person suspected of extremist views should be summarily executed. By extremist I’m referring to the type of person who might kill his own countrymen because that countryman has different religious views; or a person who would strap a bomb around their chest and walk into a crowded café to murder innocent people that possess different religious beliefs or because of the their race; or any person who might hijack a plane and fly it into a building. These people should be exterminated like the bugs they are. And the more public the execution, the better. It should be made clear why the person is being executed and that that is the punishment for their ignorance.

3)      We should build a few bases and air strips along the Afghan/Pakistan border, let the Pakistanis know we got their back.

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My Chiefs looked horrible this past Sunday, this after surprising the Steelers in OT the week before. I expected a letdown this Sunday, but nothing as embarrassing as the beatdown they received at the hands of the Chargers. Damn.

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Poor Tiger Woods, right? Whatever. Heard some commentator saying he felt sorry for Woods and what he is going thru. I think it’s hilarious. If you don’t want to get beaten up by your wife—oops, I mean, if you don’t want to get into an extremely odd car crash on your own property, I’d suggest not cheating on your wife. If you don’t want past lovers getting on TV for their 15 minutes of fame because they slept with you, don’t cheat on your wife. If you don’t want your dirty texts and voicemails aired for public consumption, don’t cheat on your wife! Guys are so dumb. They marry super models they can fuck any which way they want, whenever they want, they make more money than God, but they just can’t help but bang some tramp they meet at a club. Pathetic.

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Just read “Glenn Beck’s Common Sense”. A very good, quick read. Highly recommended.

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My favorite TV show, “House”, redeemed itself this past Monday with an exceptional episode featuring the two best actors and characters on the show, House and Wilson. After the 2-hour season opener, “Broken”, the sixth season of House seemed to be adrift as team mebers came and went, House’s abrasive edge was in remission and, once again, the soap opera was overshadowing the patients. And while the Patient of the Week was given a little more time than usual, it was only because he was integral to the plot. At any rate, Robert Sean Leonard, who plays Wilson, was terrific and, if the spoilers are right, he is going to get to show off his thespian brilliance to an even larger degree over the next few episodes.

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Not that I needed it, but the release of the “ClimateGate” emails gives me a feeling of vindication. It made me smile big-big. One of the scientists who perpetrated the “biggest fraud in history” has lost his job, another is under investigation by the university he works for (Penn State, I think). I JUST SMILED AGAIN. Global warming isn’t real, and it is ABSOLUTELY NOT  man-made. Climate change may be real; after all, the planet has gone thru ice ages and warm-ups for millions of years, but it had nothing whatsoever to do with US!

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Spotted another subversive little tidbit in the last episode of ABCs “V”. While in a V warehouse, the three main characters discuss the genius of putting the V’s new chemical weapon into regular flu vaccine. Watch minutes 28-29 of Episode 4, you’ll see what I mean (and I’m not the only one who’s noticed). I don’t always like some of the choices this new series makes, but its subversive elements are hard to dislike!

Random I

11/09/2009 by hoshinator

Above: Anna, Leader of the Visitors and Obama Proxy 

 

Sorry my posts are so few and far between. Being broke sucks; no phone, no internet, so, no posts.

I figured I’d just post some of the random stuff that’s been going thru my mind since the last time I posted.

Watched ABCs new series “V”. Being a fan of the original series, the network had an uphill battle to sell me on this updated version. In general, I despise television; like pop music, most of what’s on TV is shit. I primarily watch the NFL, Fox News, History, and House M.D. Then, drawn in by its unique premise, I began watching “FlashForward”. Its a finely written show, well acted, but I’ll be interested to see how they develop the premise beyond the first season. Anyway, I had to give “V” a chance and I am glad I did. I watched with my son. About half-way thru the pilot, I snickered to myself. He asked what I was thinking, I explained that there were some interesting subversive undercurrents to the show and I liked this very much. I was pleased in reading the critical response to the episode to see that I was not alone in this observation; Wikipedia sums them up very well in their article about the series, but I’d like to post the link for the review that comes from the Chicago Sun-Times, as it dovetails nicely with my thoughts: http://www.chicagotribune.com/entertainment/chi-tc-tvcolumn-v-1102-1103nov03,0,7062976.story. I hope this little  subtext continues in the series, which uses words and phrases like “Hope” and “Change” and “Universal Health Care” – phrases no American could possibly not recognize from current political interplay – and, like Obama, turns them on their heads. Instead of Hope, Obama has given us further economic stagnation and a quarter century high in unemployment. Liberals have always advocated for universal health care – no matter the cost – and, while a health care bill seems inevitable, the cost alone will hopefully make its life short-lived. I won’t address the concept of “Change” since even I was ready for a change after Bush shifted our economic downturn into high gear, a move enhanced and bettered by Obama. Although I will point out that I said during the Presidential election that change for change’s sake is almost a never good thing.

Speaking of health care, I’d like to offer a few quotes about the British version of Universal Health Care from award-winning author Karen Traviss, who lives there: “. . . Budgets dictate treatment in the UK health service. . . The luxurious standard of hospital care [in America] is way beyond what most … patients can expect here, and the concept of a health service where you get treatment soon after you’ve asked for it is also a novel one for a country whose well-being is in the hands of a crumbling National Health Service with waiting lists that can run into years.” And lest you think Ms Traviss is a partisan shill for the Republicans or a demagogue of conservative ideology, you should know that this quote comes from a book about my favorite TV series, House M.D. Its “HOUSE Unauthorized” from BenBella Books, edited by Leah Wilson.

My wife is having emotional issues this last week. She’s been coming home early from work (like we can afford that) and been especially needy (something she almost never is). One of the meds she is on (for bi-polar disorder) is Abilify, a drug we cannot afford. She’s been off it for around two weeks and I’m wondering if that’s the problem. She actually comes home to be with me and I can’t understand how anyone would want to be with me! (Maybe I’m the source of her depression.)

My youngest daughter (7-years-old) is emotional as well. She cries at night before school, she cries in the morning before school. Today her school nurse called because she was crying at school. She “misses mommy”. None of the changes we’ve gone thru the last couple of months has been easy, but I can’t believe Lexi is doing this. She’s in second grade, its not as though school is a new concept to her. Maybe she senses that my wife (“Mommy”) is having a hard time, but that doesn’t keep her from playing outside from dawn to dusk on the weekends. Who knows.

In keeping with my catholic personality (the standard definition, not the religion), all of this emoting makes me feel guilty. About what, I am not sure, but my unemployment is undoubtedly a big part of it. It doesn’t help that I am emotionally stunted, so its actually much easier for me to relate to and settle my young daughter than soothe my wife, who’s crying jags seem to have no source. If I had a good-paying job, like I used to, our financial problems would be gone (or shrunken) and at least part of my wife’s anxiety would be eased. . . The only thing I can hope, for now, is that one of my dark periods doesn’t kick in while all of this shit is going on. I definitely wouldn’t be able to cope!

Now that I mention it, I haven’t felt nearly as miserable as I used to. While I am not at all happy, the worst of my depression has abated and it is due in no small part to my medication, Pristiq. Which, by the way, we won’t be able to afford, either.

Principles for Assholes (Like me)

11/03/2009 by hoshinator

Speak directly and succinctly.

Have the courage of your convictions.

Deflect, deny, obfuscate.

Avoid personal attacks until they are initiated by another.

Be brutally honest.

Hold your tongue unless directly addressed;

BUT

Feel free to drop in sarcastic, irrevlevant remarks to confuse the issue.

Be direct, be honest, be fair.

Know you are beneath very little, but aspire to wisdom.

Respect all life, but reserve love for the deserving.

Coerce, manipulate and subvert each situation to the advantage of yourself and your family.

An internal dialogue which progresses toward solutions to one’s problems is natural; an internal dialogue that circulates endlessly and is tinged with self-loathing is pointless and stupid.

Engage in activities that please you. 

Engage in activities you do not enjoy to please those you love: Their happiness will be your happiness.

Don’t rely on others to please you.

Use violence as a last option; but if someone insists on fighting, be vicious and merciless.

[I'll add more as I think of them]

Shiftless

10/15/2009 by hoshinator
Me again

Me again

Today is the type of day I find most annoying. Part of my depression causes me to want to be alone. At its worst, I separate myself from my wife and kids. Being unemployed with my wife working and kids at school, I get the solitude I crave. However, there are days – like today – in which I find myself unable to accomplish anything. Random thoughts flit thru my head, the seeds of possible posts on this blog, half-formed and abandoned quickly. I start laundry, then ignore it. Start watching something on TV, then mute it and turn on some music. I’m irritable and almost want someone to call or come by to pull me out of the funk.

Hell, even the deepest levels of my sadness are preferable to this. At least then I know what I’m feeling and – more often than not – am almost powerless against it. But days like this I haven’t got any idea what I’ll be feeling from one moment to the next. I want someone to talk to. I hate everyone for leaving me alone. I want to laugh. Things are going to be OK. I am dying slowly and horribly. Whatever.

It’s extemely difficult to explain this to my wife. She’s a smart, understanding woman. She even has her own issues with depression (bi-polar). But I’ve made a few gigantic mistakes in our time together and this has created a gulf between us, a rift which may never be healed. She is a very strong and stubborn woman, as well. Compound this with my own self-loathing, my feeling that the depression and pill-popping makes me weak and you get the idea of how hard it can be to communicate my feelings to her. I don’t want to tell her I’m having a bad day because I am sure she gets tired of hearing it, tired of my mopiness, bored by my inability to pull it together. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not blaming her. I know I can tell her anything, I know she will listen and help any way she can. It is what I think she’s thinking that keeps me from bothering her with it. I mean, I get tired of thinking about how lame I am, I’m assume she must be doubly so.

Assumptions are killers.

I am a Christian who values rational thought above all others, but whose behavior is often overrun by emotion. It’s circular, it’s repetitive, it’s self-defeating.

If my theory that I am about 15-20 years behind in emotional development, maybe this is just a phase. I find myself taking personality quizzes and reading bits of philosophy not because I want to learn, but almost as if I were trying to find a way to define myself. Instead of just being what I am (which is a total drag), I seem to believe I can find a religion or philosophy that will help me bring my Self into sharper focus, making getting thru the day and making decisions easier. I believe in Jesus Christ and try to live my life by Judeo-Christian values, but I don’t honestly believe prayer will cure my depression. Then again, my built-in aloofness makes it impossible for me to invest completely in my religion, so maybe that’s why it doesn’t work… See what I mean? I’m a basket case who gets sucked into the vortex of his own lack of direction – and gets bored by it, as well.

Yawn. Right?

And this is just for today. I will snicker and shake my head about this post tomorrow. I will wonder what I did all day, how I spent all that time, and realize I wasted it. Again. As usual.

I am too old to tink like this. I am too old to be this afraid. I am too old to waste days as if there were a century more of them in front of me. But I have. And I do. And I probably will.

House M.D.

10/08/2009 by hoshinator

Where are you planning on putting that?

 

As millions of you already know, “House M.D.” is the best show on TV. I tell people I hate TV, just like I hate today’s music. What’s (maybe not so) surprising is how much time I spend in front of the mind-stripping device. Part of it is that football season has begun and I always make time for football. Also I am unemployed. But at some point a few years ago, I stumbled on a medical mystery show called “House”.

I don’t know why I tuned in; I don’t even remember the first episode I watched. I do know why I became a dedicated viewer: Because I strongly identified with the main character. The peripherals of the show are uniformly strong; his team is comprised of three very different doctors who aid House in diagnosing the Patient of the Week (PotW). The PotW usually presents with an unexplainable symptom and the sickness progresses with ever increasing severity and new symptoms which up the ante. (Having the patient vomit blood is a favorite trick of the show) It is usually some simple observation or mental leap that helps House figure out the mystery and – usually – save the patient. House has only one friend, Wilson, an oncologist at the same hospital. He and Wilson spend a lot of time talking about the patient, or Wilson’s love life, or transsexual members of the hospital staff, pretty much anything. Wilson, more often than not, serves as House’s conscience and occasionally as an interpreter of House’s idiosyncratic behavior. The love interest is the administrator of the hospital, Lisa Cuddy. House and Cuddy go round and round regularly when House tries to get  her permission to perform some outlandish procedure (like a live autopy, or a hemispherectomy) that just might save the patient’s life. Plenty of sexual tension attends all of these interactions, but, unlike most shows, it is not (or was not) a foregone conclusion that these two should be together. Generally, the PotW is a likable person who just wants to be cured, although their likability and that of their concerned relatives, varies.

All of which is to say the peripherals are solid foundations for a good TV show. But what of the hero? Is he a broad-shouldered, highly intelligent, well-hung, dream boat like Magnum P.I.? Um, no. He’s a mean-spirited, atheistic, inhuman, pill-popping genius. He walks with a cane. He despises his patients. He insults everyone around him, even his only friend. He uses analogies that leave his team in dumbfound silence. His favorite phrase is, “You’re an idiot!” He is a man who is so broken that, only until recently (the sixth season), did it seem he might ever be whole again.

As I said, I identify with House. Strongly. I don’t like people, most people are idiots. I’m highly intelligent (though hardly a genius) and I recognize this as my only strength (even if I utilize it poorly). I like pills. And although I do not suffer from terrible physical pain, anyone who knows me knows that there is something wrong upstairs. How this psychic injury occurred, or what it is, I do not know, I only know that it has crippled me emotionally and mentally. I spend entire days not going outside. I refuse to answer the phone as much as I can. I’d rather text than talk on the phone. There are days when I can’t stand being touched, not because I don’t care about the person, but because their nearness – the intimacy – terrifies me. I am self-loathing. I am the most self-conscious person you will ever know.

These are the worst things about me and, as I grow older, they seem to be softening a bit. I am on an anti-depressant (Pristiq) that I think may be helping. Being married with three kids has helped a lot; I’m probably a lousy father, but I am getting better at communication that doesn’t involve annoyance or anger, I’m better at giving and getting hugs. I find myself able to spend a day with my wife doing nothing at all and not experiencing anxiety becuase of it. As I approach 40, I have some hope of being kinda normal someday. . . I almost deleted that last sentence because I really don’t want to be nornal. Normal is boring, it is beneath me. No matter how many gains I make toward “normalcy” in my interpersonal skills, people will always be stupid and I will always despise stupidity. Freedom is not the abilty to rise above the pettiness of others. Freedom is the ability to tell them that they are idiots. It is a freedom I hope to exercise more often. Machiavelli.

Anyway, House is a really good show.

Job Search Inner Debate

10/02/2009 by hoshinator
Would you hire this man to operate a machine?

Would you hire this man to operate a machine?

 

My most recent job was with WireCo WorldGroup in St. Joseph, MO. Locally, it’s a prestigious job, one of those jobs you hear about others having, one of those jobs that usually requires you to know someone on the inside to get. I applied on a lark – and I knew someone on the inside – and I did get a job there. My previous 20+ years of work experience was in Customer Service, sitting in a cubicle or at a desk, so, needless to say, operating a machine was a drastic change. Add in the fact that I’m a basket case and we have ourselves a recipe for disaster. But the company stuck with me and, since I’m a stubborn bastard with a modicum of pride, I stuck with the job. The light bulb went on shortly before the first time I was laid off by the company and, upon being called back, I began to love the work, to love the job.

I’m laid off again. Thanks to Bush’s destruction of the economy, and Obama’s exacerbation of the downturn, I suppose the company had no choice but to lay off, but it doesn’t make it any easier to swallow.

Now I am having trouble finding another job. Again.

This happened the last time I was laid-off; months and months of Unemployment payments, pointless interviews and false hope.

The fact of the matter is that I could easily get a job flipping burgers or back in a call center. When I do job searches online, I get three or four times the number of Customer Service results as I do for Machine Operator. (Not that I search for Customer Service jobs, I think the software of the various web sites “sees” how much work I’ve done in Customer Service and assumes that that’s the kind of job I really want.)

And herein lies the dilemma: Do I accept a menial job with relatively low pay or a Customer Job with slightly better pay that will make me miserable (patience is a virtue reserved to those who can tolerate the stupidity of most people or teacher’s of the mentally disabled) OR do I hold out for a machine operator/manufacturing job? The Machine Operator’s job would almost certainly pay more and please me (not just on a self-fulfillment level,either; I like working, sweating, feeling tired at the end of the day)?

I have a wife and three kids. I’m “supposed” to be the breadwinner. During previous stints as an unemployment statistic, I was miserable and my depression worsened. I felt useless, worthless. I was ashamed of not being able to get another job. This time around, I don’t feel these emotions so much (part of the reason for which is my latest foray into anti-depression medication). A big reason for not feeling so negative about my situation is that I have crystallized my opinion of what work I want to do and why.

I like working in a manufacturing environment, that’s the job I want, and I am steadfast in my desire to have a job of this kind. That’s the crystallization.

The debate arises when one of my “Little Voices” (they are all my voice, by the way, I’m not psychotic) pipes in and says, “You should take anything you can get. You need to support your family.”  I point out to this voice that taking anything I can get will almost certainly net me nothing when compared to the amount I get paid by the State. I point out that, at my age, certain jobs really are beneath me. I point out that my family live in the boonies and, coupled with the driving involved and below-competitive pay rate, I might as well “earn” money sitting at home searching for the job I want (and watching sports and Fox News and listening to music and surfing the internet ;>|).

In most cases, I try to settle arguments, debates and inner debates with logic. In this case I think I’m clearly in the right… But it doesn’t stop that Little Voice from messing with my head.

Rap Music Sucks

09/30/2009 by hoshinator

Howdy! I’m new here. Unless a particularly inflammatory blog makes the news, I don’t read blogs, so I’m just winging it here. I considered beginning this enterprise with an introductory entry, something with a meet’n’greet vibe, but I figure you don’t really care about who I am so I shan’t.

Instead I will jump right into this business with a potentially inflammatory topic! In trying to gather my thoughts for this entry, I debated whether I should sheepishly begin with assurances that I am not a racist. I went back and forth on the idea. The coldly logical part of myself insisted that anyone who actually read the entire entry would see that I’m not a racist by virtue of the points I made. The people-pleasing part of my personality insisted such reassurances were necessary to avoid getting death threats. The logical side asserted that people usually see what they want to see and if a person began reading this entry with the belief that anyone who hates rap music must be racist, nothing I could say would change their opinion. Again, the mousy side– Well, forget it, you get the idea. Besides, how many people are actually going to read this, right? By typing this paragraph, I have both provided the reassurance and made my views on the general populace clear.

So, onward. . .

My argument about rap music has two dimensions: Aesthetic and cultural.

In my youth, I was in a band. I love music. More specifically, I love my music. Most of the stuff released nowadays is shit and I don’t listen to any of it. Occasionally a really good song will sneak thru, a song I can really respect, but, mostly it’s shit. I have never liked rap music and this opinion has been with me since the explosion of Top 40 rap hits in the 90s. At the time, the aesthetics of the music itself was the biggest factor in my dislike of the “rap music” form. In fact, initially, I refused to call rap music ‘music’. It couldn’t be music, I reasoned, since there was no melody. Often the rapper would simply repeat a catch phrase over and over again; but we don’t call the nursery rhyme chants of cheerleaders ‘songs‘, so rap could not be music, either. Upon further consideration, however, I realized that since the rap form was sustained by a steady beat, then at least I could concede that rap is music, if only in the most primitive form.

Additionally, I despised the fact that much of the “real” music on rap songs was stolen from other people’s songs. From Van Halen to Rick James, no true melody was safe from rap artists’ clutches. Additionally, what did rappers do, exactly, that made them musicians? They had a great sense of rhythm, useful for dancing but not particularly inspiring in verbiage. Then again, I’ve always been at a loss with tongue twisters, so maybe I was just jealous. But, really, speaking very quickly and very clearly to a simple rhythm didn’t make you a musician, did it? Where were the guitars? (Not Eddie’s. I mean, an original guitar lick!) Where were the acoustic drums? (Not Roger Taylor’s, I mean the drumming of the guy in the rap band. Wait, rapper’s don’t have bands? Then, where does the music come from? Oh yeah, they steal it.) And they do steal it. Or, they did. After a big lawsuit was brought by an old band called the Turtles, one of whose melodies was sampled by Soul II Soul, and other landmark cases of the same kind, writing credits for the songs began to be split between the rap artist and the songwriters whose music was stolen. (This, in fact, is the only reason I can think of that more songwriters don’t bitch about sampling: Now they get royalties for the sales of records they had nothing to do with!) So now we say the melody or hook from “real” music is just ’borrowed’ or sampled. Whatever.

Now, I should point out here that there are two types of rap music that I don’t really have a problem with, even if I won’t listen to them. They are the rap music from the two ends of the spectrum of the form, what you might call the “pop-rap” and early “hard core” rap. Young MC, MC Hammer, Fresh Prince and Tone Loc are examples of the former, Public Enemy the best example of the latter. In the case of pop-rap, I could tolerate their output because it was so innocuous; aside from the huge money they made, few really took them seriously. (In fact, it’s sad that MC Hammer changed his name and recorded an expletive-ridden CD just to gain street cred.) Public Enemy, on the other hand, was using its inimitable style to focus the country’s attention on the racial inequities and plight of inner-city blacks. These guys had a real message and used an “old school” attitude to present it. (I’m leaving out the earliest rap which often was so nonsensical in lyrical content that Dr Seuss would have been proud.)

Contrast that with the evil coming from the rest of the rap music form. The demon was called Legion, for they were many: misogyny, rape, murder, thievery, drug use, drug sale, etc. In some cases this is truly where the rap artist came from and I suppose I can respect that to some degree; but wouldn’t it serve your race better if you turned your tragic experiences into a message of hope and change? And what of the obvious fakes, or eventual sell outs? Dr Dre, once the godfather of rap, who made his money on exactly this kind of trash, is now just a fat music mogul. Ice Cube, once a bad mofo, now stars in family comedy films. Ice-T, who gave the world a song called “Cop Killer”, now stars on a cop show, for Christ’s sake!

This point dovetails nicely with my other argument against rap music: The destructive force it has on black culture. I already mentioned that I could give credence to some of this music if the writers would focus more on fighting for change, and offering hope, than revelling in the mire. Nowadays, with the horrifying statistics regarding absent fathers in the lives of black youth, often the only male perspective being offered is the music of gang bangers. They are surrounded by friends who listen to it. They hear the rapper speaking of the very experiences the black youth is going thru. Most tragically, the black youth begins to believe that the only way they will ever get ahead in life is to follow the path of their heroes: crime. (Get rich or die trying, little boy.)

Instead of being celebrated, these rappers should be rounded-up and arrested for inciting violence. I’m all for free speech, but what is the mother of a black child in the inner city doing while her son is becoming a gang banger? What’s even worse is that the rapper from the projects, who is now a rich man, in most cases doesn’t give a rat’s ass about the people left behind. Money was all he wanted, money is what he got. His work is done.

And let me just tell all the people who insist that whites have a stereotypical view of blacks as crooks and murderers that if you want the stereotypes to go away, STOP POPULARIZING THE STEREOTYPE! No, all black people are not thugs, but if an alien landed in America and immersed himself in the popular media portrayal of blacks – and the way that rap artists portray themselves! – he would think the same thing! In political discourse, you often hear the phrase “silent majority”; this usually refers to the everyday Joe who works hard, keeps his head down, and does what he can for his family but whose values tell him there is something very wrong with the path the country is on. Let me borrow – or, better yet! – sample that phrase to refer to the millions of black families that are doing all they can to follow the rules, struggling to keep their heads above water. People who want a better life than what rappers are selling them. People whose inner compass tells them that the rappers and the rap culture are as big an enemy as a bad economy and racist whites.

(And, yes, I know it takes a lot of nerve for a white guy to put himself in a black man’s shoes. I mean it in the best way.)

In a day and age when a black man can become President of this country, isn’t it time for more black Americans to stand up and say to the rappers, “Shut up! As a race we have reached the pinnacle of power in this country and your ignorant, self-defeating evil won’t fly anymore! Take your millions of benjamins and go away so we can raise our children to reach higher, become more!”

That’s not going to happen, of course, I just wanted to get on a soap box. No, rap music is far too lucrative for any of us to expect that it will disappear, or, at the very least, reform itself. As long as the children of this nation are led to believe that success can come without hard work, but, instead, with the ability to speak quickly and clearly over a steady beat, or from a life of crime, then rap music will continue to exist in the same cannibalistic manner it always has.

Thusly and therefore, rap music sucks.

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09/30/2009 by hoshinator

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